Just an UPDATE

It’s been a long period since my last update. I think I lose to think what I should to post. It’s NOT because I forget with this blog, I just lost of idea or kind of busy. Yeah, busy.

These few past months actually pretty hard for me. 

About my study, which has change the place to doing study. It’s three times further than my used to place, and it’s caused me to have to depend on others – my father and Cheila. Just to note that the worse thing to do in my life is to depend on others. But I hope it will not gonna longer like this. I’ll try to depend on myself soon.

Beside my study, also my job. Oh God, just give me a pity. I beg you. I know You never give what people want, but you always give what people need. But for my case, please make what I want is what I need. Jebaaaaaalyo ~~~~~~ T_____T

And still I’m too busy to read all that fanfiction – make me prefer to read than have to write -. Speaking about it, it’s about Super Junior (again). Don’t complain. Please. And to all people around me, PLEASE LET ME FANGIRLING THEM. 

DO YOU KNOW WHAT CAN MAKE ME SMILE WHEN YOU ALL TOO BUSY WITH ALL YOUR OWN BUSINESS?

DO YOU KNOW WHO WAS MADE ME TO NOT FEEL ALONE WHEN YOU ALL KEEP IGNORING ME?

DO YOU KNOW WHO WAS MADE ME RELISE MY (REAL) DREAM?

CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO IF I’M NOT WATCHING THEM A WHOLE TIME? Do you want to speak to me instead? I bet you that you all are busy to do that. 

SO PLEASE STOP COMPLAINING! I really don’t know what to do if I’m not keep my eyes on them (especially Ryeowook) each time I feel uneasy. At least for this time! I know someday I’ll heal. I know.

******* aaahhhh that’s a relief ******** :p

Anyway, I’m NOT mad to anyone. I just want to speak out my mind. I’m a peace person, hihihi, at least I learn to be as nice as Ryeowook oppa – see how I learn being good from them? - .

Other thing cross my mind is, I’m thinking to permanently delete my facebook account. 

It’s already A month I deactivate my FB account, and my life feels more peaceful. Hahaha but not to mention sometimes I feel kinda want to check it for little. :D I don’t know yet.

Ah, and recent I have a cold fight with my (best)friend, until today I think. If in old days it will disturb my head, but not this time. I feel more peaceful this time. It’s not because I love to quarrel with her, it’s just because I think real friend will approach you if she/he already told by you that she/he disappointing you. But this (best)friend of mine seems like don’t think so. I just take it as she doesn’t really care about me. She just cares about her forever-will-not-be-her-man boys.

And also if she read this I wanna say the things I can’t say this directly (I hope she change),

            “Stop playing with other’s boyfriend.”

            “Stop says that ‘almost f*cking with ‘that’ boy is a way to make me happy, so I just can do it since I have a hard time at home’.” It was so wrong! No excuse for f*cking before married.

            “Stop being stupid girl by flirting to all boys you find attractive. (it’s more like b*tch habit on my eyes).”

            “Don’t you say that you are princess? So, princess will give her high self-respect. By flirt here and there, it’s really not princess things.”

            “Stop to think that you are the most miserable person in this world.”

And “E”, my (best)friend who has 10 days space in our birthday, if you understand this is for you, even those words are too harsh, I’m sorry. But I just want you to be better and being back to be my nice and pure bestfriend. And remember, Saranghae ~~~ -put my big bear hug here-.

Leo 'Pabo Dongsaeng' ^_~

Speaking of “Saranghae”…. Since this post has nothing to be main topic, I just use it to say my love to these people I think… (I hope someday they’ll read and understand it). ^^

My parents, thank you for always by my side… Saranghae~~~

Leo, nae pabo dongsaeng, stops ignoring me… Saranghae~~~

My Sister, just ask Allah already if you want my accompanies in heaven… Saranghae~~~

Ryeochi, my cat, stop being napeun goyangi, don’t bite my finger when you hungry (“-__-), muaaach ~~~ :*

My Ddangkoma Group (Alin, Rina, Lelan, Nai, (recent added member) Omah and Lilis), let’s being friend as old as Ddangkoma’s life – means hundred years - Saranghae~~~

ira and dede

Dede, thanks for still give a lil space in you life for me even you already has most priority (your husband and your baby). Saranghae~~~

Cheila, maybe I pretend didn’t hear you, but don’t and never mention again that I’m your ‘second husband’. It’s weird! And people will think we meant it, meanwhile it’s just your way to ask my help with you silly boyfriend. –Keep rolling my eyes-. And thanks for all this time and ahead we spend joy and sorrow in our study. Saranghae~~~

Last but not least,,,,

Ryeowook oppa and Super Junior oppa-deul, thanks for being my inspiration, thanks for always give your best smile, thanks for always give your best performance, thanks for always give your best voice. Gomapda…. Saranghanda…….. ^_____^ 

***** muaaach muaaach muaaach *****

I hope I’ll find useful topic to post here soon…

Annyeong ~~~~~~~

Saranghae to all my beloved reader ~~~~~ :*